I had a scary thought .. my kids are going to grow up and leave me! Lol. Which some moms may celebrate but I’ve been a mom since I was 18. I dont really know what else to do with myself. I keep thinking that in 9 years, my oldest will be the age I was when I got married, moved away, and became a parent. Gah!
After they leave me, what’s next? What am I suppose to do with all that new free time!? Stalk my kids and make sure they arnt getting into trouble? (Nooo, I’d never.) I guess I’ll have to figure out what my life is going to be like when I’m not constantly taking care of someone. What else is there, outside of being a mom? I will always be their mother but what will I do with myself when they grow up and don’t need my undivided attention? When they don’t need me to strap them into a car seat. (I cannot wait to burn the last car seat!) They stop wanting to be tucked in bed. Don’t follow me around the house. Or they don’t need me to constantly remind them to finish their dinner. Lord help us when they are old enough to drive!
I guess I’m realizing there’s more to life then being a mom and trying to figure out where I fit into it all. Aside from being a wife and a mom, what is there? (Is there such a thing as empty nest syndrome, before your kids actually leave the nest!? Lol.) I know the Lord has blessed me with having a heart for others.. something my wonderful mama passed onto me (she’s the definition of selfless).. God has presented me with an awesome opportunity to use my gifts and knowledge to uplift others. But honestly, I’m a little nervous. Fear of failure or of the unknown, along with self doubt, are huge motivators that keep people from presuing their dreams.
There are plenty of examples in the bible of people who were called to a specific task but they doubted that they were the right person for the job. God didn’t expect them to be perfect. He didn’t require from them that they had all the answers or that they never made a mistake along the way. He simply gave them what they needed, to do what He called them to do. The Lord doesn’t call the qualified, he qualifies the called! He does require that we follow after Him. And then He promises that He will lead us.
Replacing old crappy habits with new ones, changing your lifestyle. Getting healthy and from that process losing weight, & getting that sexy body you’ve always wanted. 😉 Setting obtainable goals and killing it to get there. All while maintaining your sanity with all the billion responsibilities of a mom. None of that stuff is easy! But. It can be done! It’s not impossible. While I’m presented with the eventuality of my kids growing up and leaving, that’s what has been placed on my heart… To help others get to that place too!
And let me tell you, it’s kind of a refreshing & freeing feeling, to finally know what you’re suppose to be doing. WOOP woop!