Last week’s blog I detailed how this school year is going to go, with respect to starting our mornings off right; bible reading, memory verse, and praying. I was going to talk first about the new verse for this week but then something just happened and I feel kinda crappy.
The big kid and I just finished rough housing and I started to walk away, he called my name and as I turned around he threw one of the toddler’s stuffed animals at me. Hard. The thing hit me right in the face and it hurt. My reaction was to yell at him, “That is enough! I did not find that funny. Go upstairs now!” His expression went from a goofy playful smile to a hurt sad frown. I’m not sure who was more offended, me for getting him or him for getting yelled at. Although if I had to guess, it would not be me. Mama fail!
Seems like when I’m being patient and kind, it takes me repeating myself several times for the kid to get what I’m saying and do it but when I lose my temper and yell, they know mama isnt playing so you’d better listen. But which is better in the long run? … My kid having hurt feelings because I failed to control my temper is not the way I want to go. Which is why I need these weekly bible memory verses and daily readings just as much, if not more, then they do. What was that again about being slow to anger? (I guess I know what verse I should memorize for next week!)
Week 2’s verses.
Prov 31:30 “Charm is deceptive, and beauty is fleeting; but a woman who fears the Lord is to be praised.”
The big kid
Psalm 66:20 “Praise be to God, who has not rejected my prayer or withheld his love from me!”
Prov 3:5 “Trust in the Lord with all your heart”
Here is the blog post for last week. Admittedly, Bethany got hers down the very first day while George and I took a little longer to get it. I was so proud of both of them though, they worked hard to learn them and enjoyed quizzing each other. The sweetest part was how one of the days I woke up late (because the baby had a rough night) and I came downstairs, the big kid said they already went over their verses and read together. For them to grow up and get into the habit of choosing for themselves to start off their mornings this way would amazing! This mama’s answer to prayer.
Tomorrow will be our first day for the 2015-2016 school year. I just spent the past 1.5 hours planning out our week and I feel like my brain has turned to mush. My fingers hurt from writing so much (so then why am I typing this blog, who knows!) Let me just say, Im giving you teachers props times 10,000! To be responsible for a classroom full of little adults, its your job to fill their brains with as much info as you can – in such a short amount of time and then try to impact them in such a way that they develop critical life skills. That’s no easy task. Plus I have teacher friends who talk of dealing with difficult parents and a myriad social issues. I would give you all Starbucks gift cards and a spa weekend if I could. Thank you. Thank you. Thank you.
Last year was a little rough because we added baby no. 3 to the mix. I got a little disorganized (which stressed me out to the max) and so did the school work. The big kid did great but it wasn’t as well executed as I would have liked. The husband and I have talked about how to go about making changes here and there to remedy some of those issues.
How to get your homeschooling morning off right?
As I sat down today to plan out our first week back the very first thing I did was to plan morning bible reading and memory verses for the kids. My home church pastor always says to start your day off with the bible in your lap. No matter what curve ball gets thrown your way – or how our school day might turn out – at least we started on track! Lots of prayer. Lots. Will be how we keep it up.
At first I was just planning on having the kids do it but leading by example is always the best teaching tool. You can tell them what to do but it seems like actually showing them gets them further. I had their verses planned out but then that little voice in my head (re. the Holy Spirit) was like …. Wait! Youre not exempt from learning these too! Plus, I know my son will just love being able to quiz while trying to stump his mom. This will be fun for him. Im thinking of making a game out of it and at the end of the month have a little prize for accomplishing the memory verses. Ill also be posting the week’s verses here for accountability sake, but also I would love for others to join us!
Prov 31:26 She opens her mouth with wisdom, and the teaching of kindness is on her tongue.
The big kid’s verse
Psalm 139:14 I praise you because I am fearfully and wonderfully made; your works are wonderful, I know that full well.
The tot’s verse
Eph 4:32 Be kind to one another.
(I know in the pic the reference number is wrong, I caught it after I wrote it down.)
My hubby joked and asked me what verse he should try and memorize. Um. Eph 5:25. That’s all. Hahaha.
I’m going to tell you a little secret. Are you ready for it? … I want to quit homeschooling.
There. I said it! Yep. True story, that’s my secret. I’ve been thinking it since Christmas break but just too scared to say it out loud. I’m not a quitter. I said we would take it year-by-year but this year is starting to drown me.
I probably should have picked a better time to be contemplating such a big decision. After all, it is 2:30am and my 6 month old has kept me up for the past two hours. (Stupid freaking shots yesterday has his little system all messed up, poor guy!) I’m not exactly thinking very clearly. Ha. While trying to settle the baby down and failing miserably at doing so, I couldn’t help but to think about how much tomorrow is probably going to suck. If it’s anything like tonight and yesterday then I quit at everything. Baby + toddler + 4th grader + all my 50 million responsibilities. I haven’t the strength to do it all! This is nearly impossible.
Thankfully nearly impossible isn’t completely impossible, at least it’s not when you stop trying to do everything in your own strength. Phil 4:13 I can do all things through Him who strengthens me. I need this on repeat or tattooed across my forehead or maybe both.
I did read a really awesome blog post about quitting.
Apparently I’m not alone. No I don’t really think we will quit tomorrow (this too shall pass) but I do feel better for getting it out there. I need to stop putting so much pressure on myself to be one of those perfect Pinterest moms.
I just needed a pitty party moment. Maybe tomorrow won’t suck as much as I’ve imagined. Or maybe it will! Regardless … But this I call to mind, and therefore I have hope: The steadfast love of the Lord never ceases; his mercies never come to an end; they are new every morning; great is your faithfulness. “The Lord is my portion,” says my soul, “therefore I will hope in him.” Lam 3:21-24. I know I won’t be alone in whatever the day may bring.
I’ve brought how I feel about quitting to my homeschool co-op. If anyone will “get it” it’ll be those moms! Maybe after hearing their wise words I can get a better perspective. More importantly, I’ve prayed about what to do but don’t have peace about stopping. For now it just feels like that decision would be me giving up when it’s getting hard.
And although I bet I’ll regret my whining session in the morning, I’m going to publish this post. Hopefully I can come back and write about finding assurance to continue trudging forward…