Where have I been? That is a good question. Ive been around, doing a little bit of everything. Not quite doing enough in terms of trying to lose weight and live a healthy, plant based life. Which was the whole point of this blog anyways. What happened? Well there is some bit of juicy gossip behind THAT story but thats for another day. I will say that my past crept up to bite me in the butt and instead of handling it, dealing and moving through the pain, I fell back into my trusty old habits. Yummy habits … but the results didnt get me what I really wanted, they just got me comfort. Stop putting in the work and run to be comforted by the things of the world. Id like to break that. And I know Im not the only one.
So here I am, Weigh in Wednesday at 224.8. Ill be starting WiW back up because having accountability was so effective. Some of the other things I was doing since I last blogged, however, have changed. (Im no longer a BeachBody coach.) But YES I am still a vegetarian. 😉 Always.
I was reading Hebrews 4 this morning.
Heb 14-16 … Since then we have a great high priest who has passed through the heavens, Jesus, the Son of God, let us hold fast our confession. For we do not have a high priest who is unable to sympathize with our weaknesses, but one who in every respect has been tempted as we are,yet without sin.
Let us then with confidence draw near to the throne of grace, that we may receive mercy and find grace to help in time of need.
I need a moment!
Any parent will tell you there comes a time when you are totally burnt out and at the breaking point. Im there at the moment. Today has not been a good day and I just put the baby in her crib to ‘play’ for 10 mins while I get a break. A BREAK! Im a stay at home mom, breaks are not something we get. Unlike moms that work, we are with our children 24/7. We do not get to have baby free time during the day. Now dont get me wrong, I love being able to stay at home. But today is just one of THOSE days. Actually, my entire week last week was one of THOSE weeks and right now I am taking.a.break. A break from constantly running interference and redirecting.
The bad thing about your baby finally becoming mobile is that your baby is finally becoming mobile. Ah! 😛 They get into everything they shouldnt and now Im running interference. All.The.Time. Havent I said before that babies are like puppies?! Lol. The crazy thing is that the baby has so many toys but she doesn’t want to play with them. I try to get on the floor and play with her. She crawls away. (Plus she’s teething. Whining. Grumpy. Doesn’t sleep well. Doesn’t nap well. And won’t watch a second of tv.) What DOES the baby want to do? Play with the tv. Try and climb the stairs. Get into the kitchen trash. Chew our shoes (What makes a baby look at a shoe and think, that looks like something good to chew?!). Pull out the DVDs. Unroll the toilet paper. Try and climb into the shower. Pull out all of the mixing bowls from the kitchen cabinets. Play with wires. Rip paper. I’m constantly redirecting her. Saving her from her hurting herself. Omgosh, can a mama not catch a BREAK?
What do *I* do all day?! What do YOU do all day!!!?
This morning I had to redirect the baby about 50 million times from the stairs. I dont get what is so entertaining about climbing up them, but thats all she seems to want to do. You should see her when I stop her, its like I just broke her poor little baby heart. She has a full on baby breakdown and cant stand it that I wont just let her craw up those stairs. MeanMama! I caught her on the 5th or 6th step and told her, “NO Bethany. You cannot go up there!” In her sweet little angel voice, Bethany said, “Bye bye Mama!” and attempted to race up the stairs. Lol. Oh no.
I know she wants to explore and is trying to learn her environment. I’m happy that she’s so healthy and curious. But this is getting tiring. Plus the house is a mess because I can’t clean during the day. The husband comes home like — Um, what have you done all day?! — And I just want to punch him. Lol. 😉
Ok, now that Ive gotten my moment … time to go back to mama-reality….
SAHM, True Story